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For the past twenty years of my life, i can say that I've been through so many obstacles that a girl can experience in her life...

- i lost my mom at the age of sixteen
- I've tried not going home early but going home the next morning
- i first tried smoking when i was an Elementary student
- i first experienced being so drunk when i was in High School
- i had my first boyfriend at the age of fourteen
- i fell in love for twelve times with the wrong men
- and gave up myself at the age of eighteen and still with the wrong one

But all these things taught me just one lesson in life...

"Stand up for what i truly believe is right!"

I don't care if people will raise their other eyebrow when they read about these things..

This is me! The real me! And if they don't like it, well who the hell cares???

I'm turning twenty one this coming December and I'm happy. Happier than the last year. So many things to cherish, so many people to thank and so many friends to honor.

Now, I'm standing up once again for i know this is the right thing to do. Forget about the past and just reminisce about it. Thank all the good and bad things that is happening today. And dream for a better "me" tomorrow and in the future.

- i dream that I'll become a successful photographer
- i dream that one day i can exhibit all my works and show them to the world
- i dream about that magical day, the right man will come for me, only for me
- and i dream that one day, a new Chai will be born...

But now,

EJ, Erika, Eka, Joyce, Achi, Chai-mi, Chai and whatever names you wanna call me.. no one can judge and change whoever is the real me!

*pagmamahal ng tama sa sarili, respeto, tiwala, at maging tunay na masaya.*


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*Inspired by my special friends, EMIC Works Philippines, PAL and by 'my guy'.

Devious Info

  • Current Residence: bulacan, phils.
  • Interests: photoshop, photography, etc. etc. etc.
  • Favourite band or musician: chicosci, typecast, etc. etc. etc.
  • Favourite genre of music: punk rock, gothic, etc.
  • Favourite poet or writer: bob ong
  • Personal Quote: "rock on!" \m/
  • Tools of the Trade: my passion to learn more

crying out loud...

Sun Oct 4, 2009, 4:26 AM
........

i duno wer to start.

i duno wer to begin.

i duno how to live my life again.

i duno wer to go.

i duno how to stand up once again.

...............

five years..

five years, 22 days to be exact..

she left me..

...................

i had moved on..

somehow..

but the pain and the heartache of wat hapened still remains...

i thought i can...

but as time goes by...

the more i can't move along...

the more i cant face the people around me....

..............

i'm afraid..

i'm scared...

i'm nervous...

i'm frightened...

i'm leashed with my past..

..................

still trying to figure out wat to do, wat to think, wat to say...

..........................

now tell me, how can i do these things?

..............

my hands are trembling every time i cry..

my brain freezes every time i think about it...

my tears..

yes. my tears..

are flowing fast...

.........

still searching..

still striving...

still trying to stand up once again...

still looking for all the answers...

............


*Reymond Carino: pray nlng tau mahal ko
Reymond Carino: magbabago un ng direction promise

*Emic Works Philippines - tulungan , tiwala, kayanin mo dahil oras n bumigay n ang lahat sayo.ako n ang sasalo nang lahat para makabangon k lng ulet..

*Rjay tomas - parang malungkot na nman pakners ko ah, yan sad na din ako tuloy. ano ba problema natin? :-( hug nga sa pakners kong love para mwala ang prob..

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Comments


:iconkla91:
Thanks a lot for the :+fav: :)
:iconekachay03:
welcome..

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wag mong gawin ang mga bagay na alam mong ayaw gawin ng puso at isip mo.. rak lng ng rak... \m/
:iconkjdiano:
wow ate!! your works rock!!! ang galing!!
:iconekachay03:
tnx tnx tnx

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wag mong gawin ang mga bagay na alam mong ayaw gawin ng puso at isip mo.. rak lng ng rak... \m/
:iconmhonart:
thanks for watching:D :love:

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handofblood
:iconekachay03:
:)

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wag mong gawin ang mga bagay na alam mong ayaw gawin ng puso at isip mo.. rak lng ng rak... \m/
:iconfetalman:
Thank you for the watch and i hope all your dreams come true....

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if you look at your drawing in a mirror you will notice mistakes right away........
:iconekachay03:
thanks for that sir! i realy wish it will al come true.. thanks. thanks.

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wag mong gawin ang mga bagay na alam mong ayaw gawin ng puso at isip mo.. rak lng ng rak... \m/

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